Do you ever look at your partner, boyfriend, girlfriend, whatever you want to call your significant other and think, what the hell did I get myself into?
I do that quite often, because I'm seriously dating, myself.
Wait, let me rephrase that, I'm not making out with my hand, nor do I have multiple personality disorder and dating another personality in my head.
I just mean that the man I am set to marry, is exactly like me, in male form.
Chris and I met on a very popular, and kind of sketchy website called Plenty of Fish. I know, believe me I know what you're thinking, most of the time I don't even admit that to myself, or to other people. Normally I tell people we met through a friend of a friend of a mutual friend. A little white lie never hurt anyone ;)
On my profile I wrote out in big bold letters, "
I AM NOT HERE TO HOOK UP, I AM ON HERE TO SEE IF THIS WORKS OUT IN MY FAVOR, PLEASE DO NOT MESSAGE ME ASKING ME FOR MY PHONE NUMBER OR TRYING TO HAVE A FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS"
I had been on the site previously, just searching around and no matter what the guys would ask me for my number within the first two messages or would want to bone. sorry player playa, but no.
One day, as I usually am, I was bored and browsing profiles and came across Chris. Funny enough plenty of fish has this awesome feature were you can basically view anyone that stalked your page and he had viewed mine so i went to take a look. I thought "he's out of my league" and moved on. He then saw that I viewed him and took that initiative to message me. He was very nice but only talked about music and concerts. FOR THREE WEEKS. He tried to connect with me through music, but I was very confused as if someone was on a dating website why they chose to use it as a music forum. Eventually we moved our convos to Facebook.
We talked for a while and then Chris started asking me to hang out, ever the shy one i refused at first, then eventually gave in, after a couple of episodes where I stood him up out of fear.
On the night that we met, I literally had the nervous poops lol, I was in the bathroom like every 15 mins til he came, when he walked in, it literally took my breathe away. We went dancing with a group of my friends and he danced and didnt care, which was a major turn on for me.
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| The night we first met |
Then afterwards we sat in my car til the sun came up just talking. He would lean in and try to kiss but I really am a prude.
Eventually we were inseparable, spending every day we could together. He lived about an hour away from me and had planned to moved two hours away back to his home town to fix some family problems with his mother, but paid an extra month in his apartment with only a bed and some other stuff to survive for a month, just so he could see if this was going anywhere, because he had a feeling I would say forget about it cause it was a long distance relationship.
Chris and I fell fast, and were pretty much saying I love you within a months time, and have spent as much time as we could together. I went to stay with him in his home town for a while and eventually moved back in with my family once my mom got sick.
We also merged two families, because I have a son who lives with us full time and he has a daughter that he only gets in the summers. We are engaged and planning out our future and I wouldn't trade anything for our life.
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| Our family |
We have been through a lot together, and believe me, we fight. WE FIGHT ALL THE TIME. over everything, I am completely stubborn and selfish, but Chris is the EXACT same. Its literally like fighting with myself. We literally just got into it because I drank his grape Powerade after he drank one of my sodas. We get on each others nerves all the time, and I would describe us like Allie and Noah from the Notebook. But I love him, and sometimes when you're not looking, love does find you, but you cant be really guarded and afraid of the unknown, or unable to do something you would look down upon *like me with the website plenty of fish* Just be one who knows themselves, and who loves themselves, who is able and ready for a relationship, and this whole "if you look for it you wont find it" I think its crap. I looked, I wasn't actively trying to find it for days on end and getting upset but I did put myself out there. Which I think is all anyone really can do and let fate take its course!
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| The latest picture of us taken 8/3/14 |
